Thursday, 22 December 2016

Delight & Be Dependent

Last month I met up with my wonderful friend Annie for a day out in St Andrews.  We had such a good catch up and of course, we talked about boys.  The last time I saw Annie (almost a year ago) I had a pathetic crush that I was convinced was such a big deal and I was acting like an idiot around him.  But now I can't even remember who I had a crush on or why I had even liked this boy. 
Since said crush I haven't really liked a guy, and it's been wonderful.  There was a stage when I thought I liked someone but I'm realising I just liked the idea of a relationship, not actually him. 

Me and Annie talked about my stupid crushes and how I want to leave all that behind, and I've recently been talking to one of my friends about being single and how that's affecting me at the moment. 

Like many other girls I dream of the day that I meet the guy that God wants me to be with.  I pray about him, I think about him, and I feel very lonely sometimes because I'm yet to meet him.  And I'm getting impatient. 

But God's telling me something different.  He's telling me to wait.  He's telling me to be patient.  He's telling me to trust Him.  He's telling me to fully depend on Him before I even think about depending on a guy.  And for the first time ever when it comes to this, I'm listening to God.  I'm not ready and I'm finally accepting that from Him because the waiting is part of His plan. 

I'm trying my best to grow in my faith and deepen my relationship with my God first, because if that isn't right then nothing else will be.  But, being patient is tough and I'm pretty sure I'm not alone in feeling this way girls.  When we've been longing for something and praying for something for so long and God's reply is to be patient, we can sometimes feel a bit deflated. 

But girls, the waiting is so worth it.  I'm slowly trusting God with more of my heart, leaning on Him more, and learning what it means to fully depend on Him.  Girls, I can't even explain to you how amazing it feels.  Knowing that I'm growing closer to God and that He's working in me for when I do meet the guy He has for me is wonderful.  I'm learning to accept that He is in control, His timing is perfect, and I should fully depend on Him. 

Just think about that for a moment girls.  God has a plan for you.  He knows what He wants you to do with your life, who He wants you to meet, the people you'll impact and the many ways you can serve Him.  He knows the deepest desires of your heart as well as the little things in life that drive you mad but you don't know why.  He knows who He wants you to marry, or if He even wants you to get married.  He has a unique plan for you, we just need to learn what it means for us each to depend on Him. 

I want to depend on Him and have His will for me, whatever that may be, at the centre of my heart.  I want to live for Him however I can and I want to say that I fully trust Him and depend on Him and the amazing plan that He has for me as His daughter. 



Friday, 9 December 2016

Apple & Raspberry Crumble Tray Bake | The Baking Diaries

One of my favourite things about winter is that I can cosy up in the kitchen, blast my Christmas music and bake to my hearts content.  I spent the best part of last Saturday in the kitchen making some tray bakes for my friends baptism last weekend.  They were both new recipes that I haven't tried before so I thought I'd share one of them with you.  The BBC are my go to for recipes, I will happily spend a few hours pouring over their easy cook and good food magazines. 

Apple crumble is one of my favourite desserts, my mum made it a lot when I was little and has made a few variations of it which I love to try.  When I found the BBC tray bake version of apple and raspberry crumble I knew I wanted to give it a go, but with a few little changes. 

Ingredients for the base:

1 bramley apple, peeled & diced
100g of butter (softened)
175g of golden caster sugar
1 egg
280g of self raising flour
125ml of milk
200g of fresh raspberries

Ingredients for the crumble:

50g of butter (diced)
85g of self-raising flour
100g of golden caster sugar
Zest of 1 lemon
3tbsp of oats
1tsp of cinnamon


1. First thing you need to do is pre-heat your oven to 180C (or gas mark 4) and make sure you have a shelf on the second level of your oven.  Then grease a 20cm x 30xm baking tin and line it with greaseproof paper.  I find it helps to have little bit of paper over the top of the tin and then cut down to the corners so taking it out the tin is easier. 

2.  Peel and core your bramley apple, then dice it into small cubes.  Add them to a saucepan with about two tablespoons of water, and a sprinkling of brown sugar.  Cook for a few minutes while stirring occasionally. 

3.  Whilst the apples are cooking you can make your crumble topping.  Dice your butter into small cubes and rub in the flour.  Stir in the golden caster sugar, lemon zest, cinnamon and 1 table spoon of the oats. 

4.  Set aside your crumble mixture so you can make your base.  In a separate bowl cream together your butter and sugar till it's light and fluffy in consistency.  Add the egg to the mixture and beat in well.  Then stir in the milk and flour until all the ingredients are well combined.  Your mixture should resemble a doughy cake mixture.

5.  Slowly stir in the apples to your base mixture ensuring that they're spread evenly amongst the mixture.  Spoon the mixture into the prepared baking tray and then place the raspberries evenly over the mixture.

6.  Sprinkle the crumble mixture over the tray bake and then sprinkle over the other 2 tablespoons of oats.  Bake in the oven for 45 minutes or until it is crisp and golden on the top. 

7.  Leave in the tray, on a cooling rack and cut whilst slightly warm.  Once your tray bake has cooled you can remove it from the tray for serving. 

I was so pleased with how this tray bake turned out, especially for a recipe I hadn't tried before.  A cake base with a crumble topping is something I hadn't heard of before, but it's so amazing and definitely something I want to try it with different recipes.